Well, heres the journal telling about my past and the progress to the future.
-Henri..
January 18, 2010 at 2:28 PM

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Found a whole bunch of energy workers at my school.
January 23, 2010 at 12:18 AM

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Learning more and more about the future and its not going to be too good..... oh and i have started will working.
January 24, 2010 at 3:14 PM

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Had a very sensitive evening felt my energetic body and enhanced it alot made it denser changed my energy system altered my energetical currents and ect. hehe more out put.
January 25, 2010 at 8:04 PM

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Forged my exoskeleton suit!
February 17, 2010 at 6:19 PM

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working with my sensing
March 8, 2010 at 8:52 PM

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Strayed slightly away from energy work, but created my own form of influencing, programing, controling, and affecting using it. But I ignore some aspects of EW for my own benefit (ill specify later) mainly because i do better without it.
September 17, 2010 at 2:20 AM

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9/16/2010

Starting to work daily in my astral lab, created a construct planet in... bit hard to explain, but it's basicly in a dimension where it is big enough for both my hands to cup around it but not touching... but whats the point in using size as a variable in energy work unless the efficiancy is dependant on that symbolism. On that same subject, it reminds me of this entity i encountered 1 or more years ago, I could see it as a very bright shape thats in my physical vision, which scares the shit out of me, well lets just put "shocks" infront of "the" thus making it "shocks the shit out of me" Later that day, I show the signature to my friend and he says people tend to call them "Giants" but they are mostly unaware of other beings and go along doing their work, and that it was something he wouldn't wantto mess with.

It was walking by and it saw me and was interested and "looked" at me.

That was my first Astrak encounter.

I've advanced alot since then, ill try to talk to it.

Hope it reacts with curiosity the next time or it could get bad. Lol.
September 17, 2010 at 2:31 AM

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EVENT RECORD

- Creation of Heart Stone. 9/13/2010

- Creation of astral lab in Heart Stone. 9/13/2010
September 22, 2010 at 8:25 PM

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Self Diagnosis of Mental State


My mind and soul is always in the middle path, tho i have been getting urges on the darker aspects, I know who I am and know I will never be unnecessarily cruel. Realized some things about my soul, I have a purpose here that's why I was not allowed to leave when my body was dead for 15 minutes(I drowned as a kid will post an article of what i perceived death as later) I have to protect those that i want and that is humanity, I may lose the traces of my humanity but i am built by Compassion and cruelty Ive locked the latter down for so long.. But I may lose control of it in the future, I will work on my control so my battle lust isn't directed towards those i choose to protect. I am like wind I can blow any way I choose too.

I am not Evil.

I am not Pure.

I am neither light nor Darkness but Twilight.

It scares me sometimes.. when I am alone and just thinking this urge to cause pain increases more and more each day.

All i know is i will never betray you.

If it ever comes to me wanting to do so. I simply will leave. I will remain observant. But once I am a danger to others I wont chance hurting those that i Protect.

I hope and will try my best that It wont go that way, but there is a chance that must be pointed out.

I have control over who I want to be so I will fight against it.

Or incorporate it to a safe extent.



You will be updated as this goes by.

I will always remain as the compassionate and caring person, We all have the potential to be dark, some more than others. But YOU will always be able to decide your own path.




"The man who acts (through will) harms it; the man who grasps it loses it."
December 11, 2010 at 4:47 PM

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Also i will look for an ally.. i have two beings in mind, deffinate dangers to talking with them, but they found me first. I have to make the effort, I have to earn the knowledge and power that i seek, I will try to help you all if I am succesfull, and I hope I am.
(Lol, dramatic me much? )
December 14, 2010 at 9:22 PM

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Almost astral projected this morning, just felt like i wasn't breathing, and I like to breath don't know about anyone else.

Weird bit happened today.

Before i got to the point of almost getting out this being told me to kneel down some time of authority figure, first thought it was my imagination, but i was like ........ as long as i get out of my body ill do it, was going to ask Azrael about it when i got out to validate and stuff, but I was selfish and wanted to breath lol :p
December 17, 2010 at 11:16 AM

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Lots of things on my mind feels like im close to discovering or creating something dinamically and essentially new, or is that just what I want to happen?
Either way it will become a reality.

I am close to astral projecting, im getting decent with half astral projections and mental projections. Also I will be in the site's channel whenever I'm online I know i already said this but I will follow through more. (FAIL)
April 18, 2011 at 2:21 AM

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Hmm, working on combining four kinds of magicks maybe 5 if I want to be literal. Essentially would make a new kind of magick?
Well so early on in this project of mine ill only post the main four I am combining..

-Sigils
-Energy Manipulation
-Will working/manipulation
-Omnimancy
June 11, 2011 at 5:40 PM

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Questions to myself while I try to channel everything or my inner self.


What is true power?
True power is what you have, yes this sounds pretty lame ,but you do. Everyone does. True power is the ability to accept everything and all, true power is the choice to be unique yet one, understand the difference with all that exists ,but know that each and every part is you. It is highly and truly connected, this connection can't be accessed by how most think, Even I/you have barely an idea of it but a mere feeling, you have to sacrifice your uniqueness and become nothing to feel and see as all, not many are capable of doing this because it is the thing we hold onto the most, no matter what, lots of people say we are one and that they know it, but they don't you can't be one with all and live, because you exist. Get what I mean? probly not, but its not in death nor in life, in death you have an identity, your not thrown back into the blender and pop out a different person, if someone wishes to keep its uniqueness then it will, no force in anything is capable of doing so, identity is the least yet most important thing, you have to know what you presently are to make a small assumption of what you are, these deffinitions like vampires, phoenixes, reapers, demons that people have so much is merely them trying to get an identity they can understand. You cannot know what you are because you would have to know all, and that thought seems to be beyond terrifying to us, I can feel it. In this sense identity is least important because you restrict yourself, you do not allow yourself to grow or be more because you would have to stop being what you call yourself, live in the know ,but with your memories, never try to define what you are and sorry, read your questions before answering so seems i made it invalid to you (atleast). Don't have much time so ill leave this to make all of you think,
How deep can you see into the universe/knowledge?

Hmm, this is a hard one actually because I would need to have a refference point and frankly I think and hope that there is no end to knowledge, we know the same ,but i am the more connected part to our main mind/perspective shit. Being this connected would only bother you and life isn't easy nor do i want it to be easy because it would make us weaker, in a few senses. Say this is pretty much the awake henri, but even then I don't have access to all of henri, and that henri wont have a name because a name would be restrictive and dumb, since names don't change while we do. But this is pretty connected. We must practice atuning the connection more, but i think we will do this slowly, don't want to make anything easy.
What odd things can you sense in other dimensions?

Hmm, nothing right now since this focus is mostly inwards, i don't have much senses and sensing outwardly would probly make the quality of my replies drop by a lot. But since i will get frustrated for not sensing and or telling you something about the veil falling and what not, then too bad. Take the ride as it goes, we cannot have the easy, you will doubt and you will be sure ,but only time will tell. (this saying is pretty powerful and correct)
What can you sense of your past? (as in past lives and such)

What a bother, just lost some quality ,but ill still sense and see. In the past you weren't really that amazing as you wish and believe you were, but thats merely my perspective, and you shouldn't focus much on what you were in the past, but I will feed into your curiousty. Mostly you were a lot, female, male feels pretty even tho female is a bit stronger right now since I believe your last life was in the female form, but for the sake of you I'll tell you that its even, tho male wise you have a few male attributes that are stronger then female ones while some female ones have a deep access to parts of what you are, but don't worry bud, least I think its neat. Also lets me have fun and get people to question your sexuality. How lucrative. Next question. err ill give more since i felt a small yell from henri. You were involved in a few lives with love,science,war, combat, religion, you have messed up in the past, and badly, caused 2-3 deaths of family from greedy mistakes, attempting to take over things, its still strong in us now but more controlled. The most powerful thing within us is love, i tend to delve in past loves abit, the emotions are just great and such, especially the heart break from the death of the loved one, then the pain, the rage. It teaches me so much.
Do you think your crazy?

What does crazy mean?
It means your not understood. Don't really believe in losing your mind, in most cases people gain too much that they deffinitely are not ready for, but it is killing off my atunement as we speak so gradually these responses will suck till your at your normal self.If this is madness, then this madness is achieving us development and helping many others along the way, thats why others and things are attracted to our being, don't think its animalistic, and don't you dare think its some sort of sexual attraction, its like the promise of a good book that will sadden you deeply due to its sad story that connects with some part of you once its gone after teaching you so much. Doesn't make much sense ,but I dont have much time.

What is energy Work?

Energy work is just getting something done that will eventually be recycled in the universe to be a challenge for development, no matter how great and strong you are, you will continually fuel challenges for yourself by each act you make.
What is your mind like?

meh no time
Are you special?

Believe I have answered it already.
What are you?

Answered already.
Now pour your emotions and senses that you deem important in one sentence.

I should really finish this so I can tell you things before this is over.
Tell yourself a few things.

Henri, whoever is reading. Focus on the rocks under your feet as you walk through life, thats were you will find true meaning. Many will not understand this, but you will one day.
Pretty short, thought I had more time.
September 6, 2011 at 3:54 AM

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